Getting to the end of the day - the struggle

[amonrae04]

Does anyone else feel like everyday is just a struggle to make it through another day? Only to wake up and repeat again the next day?

I'm tired....

[Dreamy]

@amonrae04 yes, I live my life minute by minute just trying to make it through. It's exhausting and each day just feels harder to get through. 

You are not alone ❤️ 

[amonrae04]

@Dreamy your right minute by minute is my existence at the moment

When I began this journey I never thought this would last this long at the beginning I had motivation to make it through to the other side but now I'm just sooooooo tired of this

I'll remember that someone else is also trying to just make it though

[Dreamy]

@amonrae04 it's easy to quickly lose that motivation. Is there things that you enjoy doing to pass the time? 

I run on keeping myself distracted to try to make it through the next minute. It's hard cos I struggle to focus on things so I tend to bounce from one activity to the next. 

How are you feeling today? 

[amonrae04]

@Dreamy I have two young kids so when they are home I am busy with them. I have a computer game that keeps me distracted and j have been trying to go for long walks as well to get out in nature and challenge myself I just find the mornings are so damn hard. I feel like I'm doing all of the "right" things and to be fair they have kept me from slipping any further but just not seeing the improvements yet

Feeling lost this morning like I do each

How are you going?

[Dreamy]

@amonrae04 young kids definitely keep you busy. Computer games are a good distraction and it's great that you are going for walks and challenging yourself. Mornings have always been hard for me aswell. I think you are doing the right things and it can take time to see improvements. But like you said it's kept you from slipping any further so it's doing something. Keep doing your best, when things feel tougher just take it baby steps at a time 😊. 

I'm exhausted today and just feeling overwhelmed. Hopefully as the day goes on things will improve. 

[amonrae04]

Thinking of you today then @Dreamy one step at a time

[Dreamy]

Thanks @amonrae04. How are you feeling today? 

[amonrae04]

@Dreamy conflicted and frustrated, I watched a video this morning that really helped explain why I'm feeling the way I'm feeling the threat system etc but it's also frustrating that I've found myself here if that makes sense so good to know I'm not crazy but also frustrating that I'm in this position 

Meditations are helping so I'll do one today and also try and get out for a big walk. And TRY and practice some self compassion that's what I struggle with most I think.

What are your plans for the day?

[Dreamy]

@amonrae04 yes that conflicted feeling, being able to understand why you are feeling the way you are but frustrated being in that position, I know that feeling all too well. 

Glad you have found some things that are helping, self compassion is hard to show yourself when you are feeling low but remember you are worthy and you deserve kindness especially from yourself ❤️.

I have a doctors appointment later today so I'll be trying to focus on getting myself to that, had something very traumatic happen 4 weeks ago when I went to one so it's now a real challenge to just get myself there and the panic attacks are very intense. Other than that I'm just trying to take things easy today.