Hi @amber22 I love your reply to me! It's lovely to talk with people at an equal level.
I have a psychologist now. I have seen him twice. The first meeting I felt ok. This most recent meeting, I didn't like him at all. I didn't like that we weren't equals. I appreciated his questions. I think it's a great tool to get objective insight on oneself. I didn't like, that he made me feel dismissed & very undervalued. I walked out of the office sadder than when I went in.... I'm now considering, perhaps it was good for him to see me withdrawn & sad.
I have a problem with trusting therapists.
I can relate to social being draining.
All things that are 'not what we are used to' can take a toll.
Social is difficult for me because, there may be personalities that are not fully aligned with mine. Of course, neither is right or wrong. There are people, personalities that feel effortless, easy, (this is best for me) & other personalities that require thought, energy. But yes, sometimes, even easy people, if we are not used to it, can be draining for us.
I would actually be interested to know more about your PSW responsibilities.
If I can eventually secure my own housing, I am going to have so much free time to myself. PSW might be a great job for me. I have 20 years experience already!
I don't want to be out of the house 40 hours. I would like to WFH & maybe 2 half days in professional setting. I don't want to have to travel an hour each day either. Local would suit me.
I might like to do online? And one on one in the community, sounds appealing. If, I could assure, help another, I would feel honoured to offer my skills.
I joined a group activity last week. It was entirely overwhelming. The most out of my comfort zone I have been in 20 years?! Confronting.
I could not have asked for a more supportive group of people.
There was a younger than me, bubbly type male there. He had a Mohawk. I could tell he put in extra effort to be funny, & make things feel casual & lighthearted. All the people were kind (I think?) Isn't it a beautiful offer, when a person can sense another's discomfort & offers comfort. And it was a little clumsy, they were maybe out of their comfort zone. It is tiny moments that keep me going.
I'm have not decided if I'm going back yet. I guess, even if it ends up being not my thing - it's healthy for me to participate, have a go🌻
